Little bit of love <3

I just gave up writing a detailed post about all the 'Goodbyes' that I had to say in the past few days, about every day of the Restless week, about my holiday with my parents, about the post production party... But it will forever remain in my posts list as a draft that is another side of the story...

True, I hate saying goodbyes. Alvida. Au Revoir. Ciao. Adeus. Sayonara. Hamba kahle. Adios. Or whatever you call it... Especially when it is to a lot of love... Or should I say 'a little bit of love'? *brushes shoulder* :) Being Restless...
As Chin messaged me on the night I left for Malaysia, I am so "Restless" since the curtains closed after our last show on Saturday! The experience of being an AC Dancer has been indisputably the best of my life so far, and I won't trade it for anything in the whole world... But it came to an end with the waving to the audience after the encore "when you knew that I was always by your side"... Or maybe after we said our goodbyes after the supper at Swensens... Or perhaps after the Post Production Party's pack up... Or has it really ended? I hope not. Whatever it is- one thing's for sure- Life will never be the same again... I will miss so much:-

1. The studio, a second home to us. :)


2. The back-breaking warm ups (the familiar 1st exercise especially).

3. Attire- Our super-sexy, super-cool, super-class dance tees and our beloved dance jacket!

4. Learning the dances, which took me ages! -.-


5. The looooooooooong rehearsals, especially before Restless (Phew!)


6. All the cheering and the "Go Guys", until the point we couldn't even hear the music!


7. All the racist jokes by Raj and the dancers(special mention must go to Shawn Poh here). I must admit it was quite fun! Haha! :x


8. The two great Dance Camps- the most fun times ever!

9. All the super Dance outings- @Sentosa, @Crystal Jade 4 CNY Dinner, @ Fort Canning 4 Giselle... I really want more of those now! Pleeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzz... :D


10. Food- which we consumed in enormous quantities, thanks to some self confessed gluttons! :p


11. The cam-whoring yeah! We love the camera and the camera loves us, right? B)


12. All the numerous performances- from SYF (when u guys made everyone proud by clinching Gold with Honours!) to CNY '07 (which I missed due to last minute Chicken Pox), from Asean Congress Dinner and CPA Gala Dinner (I've got Rhythm) to the exhausting Open House, from the Old age home CIP to the Singapore bidding for YOG (Rhythm again), and of course Orientation and CNY '08 (Culture in motion) to the exchange with the Philippines University! We have truly come a long way dancers! :)


13. The two life-changing concerts- "Timeless" and "Power, Passion and Pirouettes", where we all danced for the 'restless' and the 'broken-hearted', and I danced for you all.


14. Lee Foundation Theatre, NAFA and Mrs. Lee Choon Guan Theatre, Faith Centre of Performing Arts- the brand new theatre!


15. The bonding sessions which were quite wet, if you know what I mean!


16. The stick notes filled with love and encouragement- couldn't have done it without them... They completely hid our mirrors, rendering them useless!


17. The dressing room drama- Trust me, sometimes Dancers can be more drama than ACsian Theatre! :p


18. Our Dearest Crew, without them all the shows would be a mess! Thanks for helping out guys and really being a part of the AC Dance family. =)


19. Make Up & Hairstyling- Thanks to the alumni and madams for making us look glamorous and Raj for giving us the perfect locks for dishing! :D


20. The super-glam costumes, especially our artistically self-designed Restless Jeans, all of which turned into soggy and smelly heaps of sweat after the performances... FEBREEZE saved us all from a biological hazard!


21. Our Final Moments on stage- when we all cried like babies, even the gangsta woman Yun Ning, even macho shit Taj, and when even Raj came to the brink of tears! And all the final prayers and the hugging, and special surprise from the junies! :*(


22. Debrief by our Dear Ms. Michelle Wong, when we were told the DOs and DON'Ts after the show...


23. PPPs- I couldn't attend the first one coz I was back home, but I could see from the photos that it was a blast! And this year's Beach Party PPP was just so damn class- I got dunked twice, had my butt cleavage captured in a camera, and teared and laughed like crazy!

24. Raj- his self-designed jeans, his songs, his choreo, THE DISH, the scoldings (Ji Dan, Cotek, breasts/balls, and a lot more) but most of all the jokes! Thank you Sir, for everything you've taught us!


25. The committee, which was the best ever we could have asked for! Thank you guys!

26. The seniors- our inspiration, our mentors! Thanks for passing on the legacy to us and showing us what AC Dance is all about. :)


27. The juniors- we are the luckiest batch in terms of juniors, PPP is testimony! And I can see the awesome potential that they have, and how they love us as much as we love them...

28. My fellow AC Dancers- I love all of you. And I dunno what I'd do without you. Really Really, you rock my socks! Each of you has touched my life in a special way, so I wanna use this post to thank you, even though I know I could never thank you enough! I just hope & pray & wish that we keep growing strong on our "Smokey Mountain Memories" and finally get our own "Happy Endings"! :)


29. AC DANCE family- Live your Dance, Dance your life.

30. Much Much More, which cannot be put into words, pictures or videos Emotions that are so deep, that they are impossible to explain! The best I can do is put my feeling for AC Dance in three words- Everlasting Unconditional LOVE.

wasted mohito (I feel as if I am wasted!)

P.S. This post took me two weeks to finalize and it is still under renovations. Phew! Things I do...

Tick Tock, Tick Tock...

The countdown has begun! Only five more days to dance with the AC Dancers, and this is when I start to wish that these kind of things never came to an end! But...

I think back to the day of my audition- the trademark Raj steps in 'Rebek' and a turn of fate/destiny/chance/Raj's gift- whatever you may call it because it definitely wasn't talent and I was an AC Dancer. Or maybe not yet. After so many scoldings, rehearsals and setbacks, I finally improved a bit and a lot of bonding finally made me an AC Dancer- part of the ACJC Dance society! Thanks to Raj, my seniors, the teachers, my batch mates and now my juniors. I don't know what I'd do without even one of them...

And even though they say "once an AC Dancer, always an AC Dancer", this wonderful journey will be over when the curtain closes on Saturday, and I have no idea how I am going to cope with the fact that there will be no more dishes, no more warm ups, no more cheering and no more being "Restless". I will miss you guys, and I will love you and remember you, for the rest of my life!

But for now, I am getting ready to give my all to my favorite group of people in the world. I want this Restless to be the most memorable thing for myself, and I know that there is only one way- to make it unforgettable for everyone else. Tomorrow we hit theater, and I know its gonna be one helluva experience, and no matter how much I want it to las t forever, it will come to a climax. So, I have decided to contribute all that it takes to make Restless V 'Truly Timeless'. :)

Go Dancers! :)

Here are some shots after the day's rehearsals- cam whoring & candid shots and emo shots! Everything.


Clarice, Me and Adele acting cute and Adele failing miserably! Haha! ;p


We're HAUT! B)


The 'demure' Hakim! ;)


Terry'story' the loner!


Shawn's brother- believe it or not! =)


Nicky!


Ying- camera conscious |-


One last glance... The Dance Studio, that had come to be Home...

And the door closes! Forever, even though it will always be open with the open hearts. :)

This reminds me of the first time I walked through that door and looked at the studio and Raj(who was dressed in his bright yellow tight tee and fancy self-designed jeans)... Funny how some details are etched in your memory! :)

mohito
:(

i am back, and i am better.

Or so I would like to believe, despite of a certain fallout with a very special friend, a friend I tried to be friends with... But I guess I knew it right from the start, somewhere deep within- we were never meant to be... I am just content and clean with my own conscience that I did my best... I don't blame you. Honestly. Even though I don't know why all of this happened out of thin air, but sometimes events happen due to critical mass, even though there seems to be no immediate reason behind them. I have to console myself on this theory. And I am brave enough to admit that I am justified in preserving my whimsical ego to sort out the matter with you. Trust me, nothing has changed from me, even though it might have changed for me. This is all I have...

This is the way you left me,
I am not pretending...
No hope, No love, No glory,
No happy ending.

Ah, the paradox of human life, notice how this phrase "No Happy Ending" contrasts against the title of a certain earlier post- no doubt written in higher spirits after watching OSO! :) But I am in love with this song. Its such an elation to dance to it.

I am not sad, I am just empty. Exactly as I had told Lesley on one of our rare "real" conversations in a bus on a South-African highway- "People generally do not have the power to have a negative enough impact on my paradise. They are adornments, not blemishes." I still stand by my statement Les. I hope I always will.

Anyways, after breaking my long exile from blogging on a rather low note, yours truly would like to update you about his life. Its all about one word these days- RESTLESS. My emotions are in perfect accord with every meaning of the word, and so are my intentions. My final dance concert, my signatory performance on the virgin CPA dance floor is just around the corner and there are many highlights this year- my parents' cherished presence in Saturday's audience being the icing on the cake. I can't believe I am actually going to dance with AC Dancers for the last time, last time under the guidance and exuberant light of Raj and in front of my parents. Since when did I come a dancer? I was an artist, but more a musician, or was I a scientist? Or a philosopher in pursuit of truth? I admit I don't know.

I wish it never ends. This journey. I don't want to reach the destination, can we all stop here and live happily ever after? living our dance, dancing our lives? Please?

Moving on, studies are not moving on AT ALL! Inspiration, where thou art? I have a lot on my mind, preparations for my parents' holidays- I want this to be a love-filled and relaxing time for them! Also, SATs and other academia! Phew! Bunk it for now. I have discovered something, or rather discovered what I have not discovered- Love.

I guess I underestimated the feeling a lot of times, and looked like I fell in love and fell out of it quite often. But now I am wiser. I am going to wait for it, until it really comes. This, no doubt exciting, is a bit disconcerting due to the possibility that it might never come or I might never be able to recognize it. Umang, I miss you...

mohito

From Tapestry to P&P...

The Day I went for the Arabian Nights auditions, I had little idea of the journey I was going to embark on... I didn't even go well and ended with Raj scolding me and my group... I wasn't even expecting for inclusion, but destiny had other plans, or should I say Mrs. Creffield had other plans! It turned out that these were auditions for both Tapestry(an ACsian Theatre CIP initiative) and Arabian Nights(end-of-year J1 production) and I was chosen for both! It didn't mean much to me then, but now I realize how much that moment means to me when I first saw my name on that sign-up sheet! :)

tapestry.

Oh o o o! Its the best years of our life!

It was great and the great happened for countless of times- 4 times on orchard road, 4 times at Open house, 1 more time at CPA Gala Dinner! I loved every bit of it... Dancing with Dhee when I was in the wings and coupling with the amazing Lesley and that happy feeling every single time we did! I never got bored of that dance and I wish I could do it one more time...

arabian nights

Ishaal... Muah!

It was so much fun and such a time of bonding with the company... I will always remember those that cramped dressing room, that 'only guys' worship just before the show and all those Indian elements including the dance songs 'Rang De Basanti' and 'Bulla' and 'Jaan-e-jaa'... Kiss Kiss was the only dance I did more than "Best Years..."! We did it four times before interval for the four shows of my first theatre production... And for CPA gala dinner and for Red Cross and then for Orientation and four more times while on my first Overseas tour to South Africa!

south africa

And I give up forever to touch you... Mitwaaa!

I discovered the J1s as I discovered the African Safari and African food and African climate, but most of all African audiences! I swear they were the best any performer can wish for... And that exposure made me grow so much... It was definitely one of the best experiences of my 17-year long life! We did so much- we visited museums, ate fresh exotic meat (atleast the others did), saw wild animals at their home, saw the very ancient tribes of human race, watched Hairspray the musical by a South African Theatre company, did an exchange program with two all-girls schools by teaching Bhangra and got standing ovations by the awesome audience, and so much more! It was ultimate!

Pride and Prejudice

Go On, Go On, Come On Leave Me Breathless... And Ever Ever After!

Nick and Lesley at their best... And one of the rare happy plays ACsian Theatre does... The Subway or McD late breakfasts, train rides with Samdish and Sahil, the comfy SRT dressing rooms, the backstage drama, the warm ups, the performances, the confetti cannon and then taking a cab back home and then of course the Post Production Party (which sadly ended too soon)! My last production with ACsian Theatre was one I will never ever forget, especially because I was not feeling for it initially, but I ended up crying so hard and so much during the last day's bonding session! However, there were two or three undesirable events like Raj's injury (which casts shadows on Restless V) and something very insignificant that is hardly worthy enough to mention... Still, it was so fulfilling! Thank you everyone! And as I said- "I love you all". :)

mohito

P.S. I hope we can be friends forever. I soo wanna come back like Jun as alumni and perform again, but I know it won't be the same... without you.

i am running across an abyss, on a golden string.

I have to leave for PnP full dress rehearsal in one hour. And I am running late... I hope Ms. Wong refunds the cab fare coz I am broke... I am gonna talk to Her today, like we used to... Oh, tomorrow is first show, please let it be great coz right now, I feel dull about it... I must take pictures today, I have so much free time and so much of inactivity that I grow tired... In future, I am going to seriously distinguish between crushes and love. And I am going to float in love, not fall in love. It hurts...

I had a bad dream when I was taking my after-breakfast nap. Ya, I actually managed to get up for breakfast... I can't remember much of it but I think I fought with Her when she was playfully teasing me to the extent of being physical (I know right, I can't believe it too!)... And then I fought with Renuka for some reason, looks like fighting with the girls in my life is season's hot favorite! And then because of the fight, I didn't pack anything properly for my flight at the end of my scholarship! And I was sitting besides Anuj and Abhinav with no passport in SIA! Weird right? But it was really freaky and I so never want to fight with her. I just everything to be nice and pleasant, at least for her if not for us...

And I give up forever...

Today, De Wei was telling us about the CPA... Ah, CPA! *sighs*

Anyways, I can't wait for Restless... PnP is next week. :)

"Mere mann yeh bata de tu, kis aur chala hai tu..."

Perfect?

The weather is perfect :) The breeze smells good and feels good, its about to rain and the sky has shaded... Its been a wasted day... Perfect with F.R.I.E.N.D.S, but not otherwise... Everything else is so perfect! Then why not so my life?

mohito

P.S. Pardon this incoherent and random chain of thoughts! I am fine. Or will be. :)

RJ Dance Camp 2008 :D

This is to certify that Mohit has survived the ACJC Dance Camp 2008 and is officially an AC Dancer.

This is what my Cert reads... Yoohoo! And I am so glad to be a part of the ACJC Dance society!

.prep.
I prepared a lot. I had to find all sort of clothes, buy all kinds of gifts for my angel and yet-to-be-given mortal, pack everything in one small bag! But it was fun. I couldn't go to school on Friday (which could land me in a lot of trouble, but heck, who cares?)...

.prelude.
I went to our haven- The Aerobics studio dressed in blacks, carrying two heavy bags filled with clothes, food, shoes, gifts, toiletries and a lot of other "unmentionables". Our group rehearsed for our self-choreographed gig for about half an hour, and then we were off to inventing group cheers and playing some ice-breakers(if there was any ice to be broken). Our group GENE KELLY came in fourth in the "tea sucking" game and second in the "digg the polo sweets" game! After all I was the one who was digging out the polos from the flour... thu thu! Oh ya, I got my new mortal before that, and it turned out to be one of my favorite J1s- the multi talented, DEPper, fellow 'proud n prejudiced' Chrislyn! :) So, I wrote my first letter to her after all the cheers and dinner, but she never replied :(.

.launch.
Raj arrived and we had our first warm ups and routine (Rock!) with Raj being the entertainer that he is. I need to be stronger, so much more, like my disguised Angel (to be revealed later). He taught a new routine and I let my group down again by not being together. What the hell is wrong with me??? Some one please explain to me. Moving on, Ms. Jackie came and taught us a tap routine (we are using it for Restless and I am so out of it, I suck at tap!)... Chrislyn was phenomenal even without shoes... After all, she is my mortal, Haha! After all the dancing, we showered and had supper which was heavenly with all the brownies and a lot of cremo! I wrote my second letter, with an orange juice to refresh her in the morning, but she still did not reply! Very good... Somebody was really busy.

.movie.
Oh, we watched Center-stage, Honey and Chicago- all filled with really hot dances! And then before going off to sleep, I got my Angel's much-awaited first letter with the ass saying "As I am new to Dance, could you begin by giving me an introduction!"... Anyways, I wrote a reply to him with an enlarged specimen of his own gift to me (Snickers!) and went to sleep listening to music! :) P.S. I am so sorry I couldn't wish Renuka a happy birthday.


joy 'n chrislyn :)


nathalie and nick had to turn!


lounging on Pete's sleeping puff

.rise and shine.

shawn- the tired urchin :p

I woke up quite early at 6, before everyone else, to write a good morning to my dear mortal. Ah, how nice I am! ;D The worship by Bev and Tim was awesome, and so was the breakfast with all the cereal from Heather, juice from myself and donuts by Putu! I love my group Gene Kelly. But then, I dicovered I had lost my soap and one pair of blacks last night. I showered, nevertheless. And got ready for Ms. Stacey's hiphop class, which turned out to be a clubbing session and really fun. And I was dressed in a singlet, cap, accessories and baggy pants (Picture me!)... Then, she took us for Belly dancing, which is a really hot genre of dance! And Chrislyn is really good at everything... I saw her belly dancing, and I was like wow! And I am not that bad at belly dancing too, even though the masculine steps are not much of a treat! :p


.don't stop.
After Lunch, Raj came and he played this lyrics game with us on one of the Restless 2 songs , and I was asked to say the lyrics in an Indian accent to earn points for my group! After a lot of fun, he taught us yet another Janet Jackson number- Don't Stop All Night. I still can't get the Salsa twist step like Tazz, but wait for it! And I got scolded again for not being with the group for just one step... Sigh! Anyways, we had the master class after that by a South African instructor Ms. Celestunisen who taught us Latin Jazz and man, it was a blast! :D She started on a high note and finished on an even higher note. To demonstrate one of the couple positions, she picked me! After, we had demonstrated how close the couple needs to be, she complimented me on my perfume! I mean what the... And the dancers were hooting away to glory! And as expected, my mortal was unbelievable at the latin jazz as well! I danced with Beatrice- one of the J1s who was way too shy but was fun to dance with anyways! And then, we got group time to rehearse for the group item- ours being on Gene Kelly's Broadway and tap style! "lollipop & wicked little girl" ... BD

.the blast.
Well, it started tense with all of us rushing to get ready and get to the void deck- the ultraglam venue! And I was finishing my final letters of course... =) I had thoughtfully picked up an eye massager for my mortal and apple chews for my angel =) Even with rickety start because of some tensions with the committee and teachers, the party was breathtaking. It started with the AC Dancer oath with us bullying Joanne again (ok!) and Raj making us laugh all the time with his superstar antics! :D There wasn't much vegetarian food but that wasn't going to taint the night's Xperience for me! I had a feast full of fruits... Then began the first round of prize presentation, and behold Edlyn (the most masculine dancer 2007) who was called upon to relinquish her crown for her heir in 2008! And it was none other than the manly, gangsta woman Yun Ning! Woohoo, the most masculine award yet again evades all the guys! Haha BD


dramatic dancers


burnin' it up with lovely lydia!


one of my fav. mafia junies- Tim!


go on, go on, come on leave me breathless ;)


pretty picture perfect.
Thanks for the worship, encouragement, dance and everything else Bev! :)

Anyways, then was a new award for the worst dressed dancer called the 'Mohit award', which is obviously ironical since Raj said that I was the best dressed that evening! ;) And Christopher, our new starlet went away with it... After these two booby awards, Joan won the "Most supportive Dancer 2008" (I got nominated and that was my dream come true :) I <3>

.dance-battle.
First group was Julian Michelle and they did the same number shown during the movie screening- "All that Jazz" with Aretha as Catherine Zeta Jones, lol! But it was really sexy, and cheesy at times too! After that came Richenda's group- Kenny Ortega, who performed on the High School Musical numbers! It was really fun to watch them! Third in line was Raj's own choreographed number in PnP- Soulmate! But this time with the dancers of Martha Graham choreographing it in lyrical style! And in Raj's words (who was feeling quite insecure, haha!)- "It was really Wow!" Then, we performed- The GENE KELLYs and ours was "an enjoyable performance with a refreshing concept" (All kudos to you Taj) Yay :D


gene kellys- Do you have the dance genes?

After that was Marty Kudelka's turn to show us what they had, and it was really hip and hop, with a hilarious ending: (in breathless, erotic tone) "Marty, we never marty. Marty Kudelka, Yeowww" Vanessa's group- was really amazing too and so were the Michael Jacksons, led by none other than my mortal- Chrislyn! But the Mia Michaels inspired group was truly mesmerizing, even though they had problems with the music! I reiterate- I <3>

.climax.
Due to time constraint, the rest of the prize ceremony was rushed... *highlights* I won the coveted- Jidan award. True successor to Kenneth, haha, but I am proud of being scolded the most ok! It helps a lot. Our beloved Heather Momo won the Best Group Leader award. Go heather feather! And Julian Michelle in an unexpected upset of Kudelkas won the Best group award! Phew! Then, finally came the revelation of Angels and Mortals, after Raj had almost forgotten about it... And Dear Chrislyn claims to have guessed that it was me but too late, because she never wrote it to me, haha. I hope my gift helps you recover darling! *BLUE WHALE HUG* :) And that ass Peter turned out to be my angel, ending off perfectly by gifting me a ladies' wallet... I want to kick him... Haha, but still *Chest Bump* And after a bit of cam whoring, all the scholars left off with me going off with Lam in a cab. So anti-climatic! :|


the slave kellys. (I discovered what a camwhore Taj is! Haha)

fulfilled mohito!

P.S. Ms. Yu talked to me about whether I went to school on Friday and she was upset about me coming to camp when I didn't attend school. :(
P.S.S. This is part of what Chrislyn wrote to me in her exclusive and ONLY letter, and this has touched me like nothing else before. I don't know if anyone has done this before, thanks friend.

Dear God,
I thank you for my angel. The orange juice, the pink sweets, the lovely letters & ALL else you've given... through my angel of course.

:)