Tick Tock, Tick Tock...

The countdown has begun! Only five more days to dance with the AC Dancers, and this is when I start to wish that these kind of things never came to an end! But...

I think back to the day of my audition- the trademark Raj steps in 'Rebek' and a turn of fate/destiny/chance/Raj's gift- whatever you may call it because it definitely wasn't talent and I was an AC Dancer. Or maybe not yet. After so many scoldings, rehearsals and setbacks, I finally improved a bit and a lot of bonding finally made me an AC Dancer- part of the ACJC Dance society! Thanks to Raj, my seniors, the teachers, my batch mates and now my juniors. I don't know what I'd do without even one of them...

And even though they say "once an AC Dancer, always an AC Dancer", this wonderful journey will be over when the curtain closes on Saturday, and I have no idea how I am going to cope with the fact that there will be no more dishes, no more warm ups, no more cheering and no more being "Restless". I will miss you guys, and I will love you and remember you, for the rest of my life!

But for now, I am getting ready to give my all to my favorite group of people in the world. I want this Restless to be the most memorable thing for myself, and I know that there is only one way- to make it unforgettable for everyone else. Tomorrow we hit theater, and I know its gonna be one helluva experience, and no matter how much I want it to las t forever, it will come to a climax. So, I have decided to contribute all that it takes to make Restless V 'Truly Timeless'. :)

Go Dancers! :)

Here are some shots after the day's rehearsals- cam whoring & candid shots and emo shots! Everything.


Clarice, Me and Adele acting cute and Adele failing miserably! Haha! ;p


We're HAUT! B)


The 'demure' Hakim! ;)


Terry'story' the loner!


Shawn's brother- believe it or not! =)


Nicky!


Ying- camera conscious |-


One last glance... The Dance Studio, that had come to be Home...

And the door closes! Forever, even though it will always be open with the open hearts. :)

This reminds me of the first time I walked through that door and looked at the studio and Raj(who was dressed in his bright yellow tight tee and fancy self-designed jeans)... Funny how some details are etched in your memory! :)

mohito
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i am back, and i am better.

Or so I would like to believe, despite of a certain fallout with a very special friend, a friend I tried to be friends with... But I guess I knew it right from the start, somewhere deep within- we were never meant to be... I am just content and clean with my own conscience that I did my best... I don't blame you. Honestly. Even though I don't know why all of this happened out of thin air, but sometimes events happen due to critical mass, even though there seems to be no immediate reason behind them. I have to console myself on this theory. And I am brave enough to admit that I am justified in preserving my whimsical ego to sort out the matter with you. Trust me, nothing has changed from me, even though it might have changed for me. This is all I have...

This is the way you left me,
I am not pretending...
No hope, No love, No glory,
No happy ending.

Ah, the paradox of human life, notice how this phrase "No Happy Ending" contrasts against the title of a certain earlier post- no doubt written in higher spirits after watching OSO! :) But I am in love with this song. Its such an elation to dance to it.

I am not sad, I am just empty. Exactly as I had told Lesley on one of our rare "real" conversations in a bus on a South-African highway- "People generally do not have the power to have a negative enough impact on my paradise. They are adornments, not blemishes." I still stand by my statement Les. I hope I always will.

Anyways, after breaking my long exile from blogging on a rather low note, yours truly would like to update you about his life. Its all about one word these days- RESTLESS. My emotions are in perfect accord with every meaning of the word, and so are my intentions. My final dance concert, my signatory performance on the virgin CPA dance floor is just around the corner and there are many highlights this year- my parents' cherished presence in Saturday's audience being the icing on the cake. I can't believe I am actually going to dance with AC Dancers for the last time, last time under the guidance and exuberant light of Raj and in front of my parents. Since when did I come a dancer? I was an artist, but more a musician, or was I a scientist? Or a philosopher in pursuit of truth? I admit I don't know.

I wish it never ends. This journey. I don't want to reach the destination, can we all stop here and live happily ever after? living our dance, dancing our lives? Please?

Moving on, studies are not moving on AT ALL! Inspiration, where thou art? I have a lot on my mind, preparations for my parents' holidays- I want this to be a love-filled and relaxing time for them! Also, SATs and other academia! Phew! Bunk it for now. I have discovered something, or rather discovered what I have not discovered- Love.

I guess I underestimated the feeling a lot of times, and looked like I fell in love and fell out of it quite often. But now I am wiser. I am going to wait for it, until it really comes. This, no doubt exciting, is a bit disconcerting due to the possibility that it might never come or I might never be able to recognize it. Umang, I miss you...

mohito