Ba bye January 2008!

You came and you flew past... I just realized today is one month since I last saw 2007... I am personifying things way too much, right? Hmmm... Reflecting back on the month that is gone forever- it was pretty fruitful CCA-wise... I made new friends and got older ones back... Studies- cough, cough! That is one area I have to work on! Pretty disappointing month as to my lifestyle- disorder and chaos reigns! I still have not arranged my shelves and cupboards the way they are supposed to be!

I cannot believe one month has passed since I and Joanne were sitting on the benches in void-deck (I think its cool too!) and talking about one of my favorite topics- Life! Well, it has pretty much changed since then, and I think its time for another chat Chin, but about something that is also very important to both of us- AC Dance. But only when you recover completely from ailments (take care ok) and also get some free time. Quite improbable right now...

With February will come Chinese New Year , Valentine's day *shudderr* (Remember last time? Chicken pox?), and then of course- The Term Exams!! *Fire-alarm goes on* I hope I work hard and do up to my ability... i am in dire need of some As on my report card! I need to start organizing my life- Keep the healthy diet and work out going, tidy up my room, start preparing for SATs, focus on studies more than on CCAs, and some "unspeakable" stuff! Imao... And I should be just fine... Happy feb '08 to one and all!

mohito (Cool as a blizzard right now!)

Confessions of an AC Dancer

"i take H3 dance-ology"- this is what my new AC Dance shirt says... Uber cool right? I am even wearing it right now... Can't take it off! Haha, it is just so me!

I am going through mixed emotions... I am jubilant for getting approved for South-Africa... Looking forward to one helluva fun time with the thespians... I am humbled that I am still in the 'prototype group' for Feedback! Still can't believe my luck! I am on top of the world because I am spending so much time dancing with the AC Dancers! I am happy that I have finally mastered the art of staying awake in lectures! And even though it takes money, I am eating a lot of healthy food- just the other day I bought milk, bananas, apples, bread, juice and Snickers (the last one was for a friend)... Wish I could 'work out' a bit more though (Work, you've got to work your body baby... sizzzles!)...

I am anxious about 'my most favorite group of people on earth' though- The AC Dancers... The society is going through lots of rough patches these days... Two very certain guys have left us... We are riddled by injuries and ailments... Keeping my fingers crossed that I don't get Conjunctivitis at this Chinese New Year like last time's Chicken Pox (On Valentine's day too!@#$%^&); but notice the 'C' connection between the diseases and CNY... Someone even suggested Cancer :-o !!!

Getting back to the topic; the biggest flaw of this batch is that we are not together (all of us), and that obviously shows on stage... No matter how good we are at faking it... This is when I start missing my J3s... They were so much together- more like a family of friends... And this is a serious issue especially in the face of J1s coming in; because we are the ones who have to show them what AC Dance is all about... To infuse the spirit of 'friends for life' into them... Dancers, if you are reading this, please don't take it personally. I might be wrong but this is what I feel... We are all amazing individuals and special people; with the possible exception of myself! But we are not yet there as a group... We have gangs of really close friends, but I see broken fragments put together, not one masterpiece. I know we have a long way to go as an ensemble, and I am sure we can feel it too.

Well, personally for me, AC Dance is the reason I go to college because honestly, I will be much more productive if I teach myself and do self-study than in the sleepy lectures and tutorials (at least most of them). Its the only motivation that is keeping me going, that washes away all my stress and keeps me lively and happy, even in the face of academic failures, misconduct and poor lifestyle! Why do I like AC Dance so much? Sorry, did I just say "like"- let me change my words- Why do I love AC Dance so much? There are three very simple reasons- AC Dancers, Raj and the teachers. I dance for my fellow dancers, to make a difference in their lives, so that they derive joy watching me dance and dancing with me. I don't know if you really comprehend the extent of what I feel for the "h3 dance-ologers ;D "... Let me put it this way- There are some dancers I would even risk my life for, and trying by all means not to sound cheesy- I am serious.

Of course, I don't expect that from other dancers. But we should at least all be friends... For instance, there are some dancers, who completely ignore me when I see them in the corridor... Others who don't respond to my HIs and Hellos, which is nothing but sad or depressing... Well, all this is what I wanted to talk it out with my President (We've got issues to talk about, man), because I believe she is one person who can surely turn the tides around... I have faith in all of the AC Dancers- we can make it there together guys!

mohito (Phew!)

P.S. By the way, Great job in the AC celebrations rehearsal... You all really turned it on that day- 'Culture in motion' was truly magical that day... Kudos to all of you. Yup, Raj and the madams too! :D
P.S.S. One more complain (I am such a whining idiot)- My angel, if you are reading this, thou art warned! Write to me a 'love-filled' letter asap (preferably with a gift) or else...

Congratulations & Celebrations!

*blows trumpets all over*

No, I am not celebrating an early Chinese New Year!

I have been selected for Acsian Theatre's South Africa tour *dances around in the middle of the night*... I am trying to be humble about this, but I am too happy for that right now... And I just took a bath adds to the festivity of the situation (no, I take a bath almost everyday :-)- Its just that I feel very fresh and smell nice! Yay! Ok, I am humble about it and very thankful to madams, friends, drama, everyone, god, but I have to tell the truth- I was kind of expecting this... Thanks for not breaking the chain of my good times since I was born! Lol...

Now to the problems- Raj... I respect him, idolize him and consider him very significant in my life for teaching me so much more than dance... And I just wanted him to support me in this decision... But he is averse to me going with drama to SA... I understand his concern, but it is unnecessary... true, I will be missing more than one week of Dance but thats just 3-4 days... I can come back and learn the steps... And besides, so many other dancers are going- Beverly, Ying, Clarice, Dharshini, Edlyn, Lesley... Why only me? Does Raj expect more of me? If he does, he should trust me to give Dance my 100%... this year's Restless is probably the second most important thing for me in 2008, first is A-Levels... D'uh! And it is not even confirmed that there will be dance practices during March holidays! Moreover, it is such a 'once-in-a-lifetime' opportunity for me- to learn, to explore, to experience, to enjoy! I want to goooooo...

SOS please, some one help me!

mohito 8D

Life Rocxxx!

Yesterday was superrr-day! Inspite of the fact that there was mass PE! You know what- I enjoy mass PE! Ya, dont give me "that look"! I like exerting myself (Push It, push it to the limit, limit!)... Feeling the pain because I feel growing faster, higher, stronger! (I hope I got the order correct! If not, feel free to comment.) Hey, I am not a masochist by the way! It just gives me satisfaction to push myself physically and get better and better at it... I wish I could feel the same for my studies, which are soooo damn boring... Ya, so where was I? Ya, today's PE contributed to making my day because I got my best ever timing 8:40 for 2 k.m. and I finished third among all the guys! Now thats something I can be glad about, hehe!

Thats not all, I didn't sleep at all during classes... I guess I have finally found a way to keep myself awake... Annotation and beautification of notes... As long I keep scribbling or drawing(relevant stuff), I am more productive in class! Great, Problem solved! Hopefully :D

And ofcourse Dance! AC Dance, then drama dance! Woohoo! I had an amazing time learning the new number with the dancers- "Do you like my style... Sexy, sexy, sexy, sexy"... Its awesome, the only problem is we are performing this dance only in May- For Restless V! I cannot wait for it! :D Then, ACsian Theatre- its basically couple dance with my good old partner again! Ya, I am kind of glad to be back with my "oh-so-many-times" Tapestry dance partner... And Raj was like "Hmmm... Mohit, not bad haan, I didn't know..." *Smirk* Kudos to you, you are so light and so expressive, thats all the reason for our chemistry (On-stage ONLY :p)... Though someone said we should get together... ahem, ahem! Don't worry, I have yet not fallen for you! *girl takes a sigh of relief* Haha, but notice the word "yet"! Just kidding... You know that, right?

Then, my luck that we were released earlier because of CNY dance... Even though I am totally crazy about dancing and I am almost a dance-oholic, a break is always welcome...

Then what, came back... I guess just studied a bit... And as I am writing after four days, I dont remember much of what else made my day... Should have been my friends!! Hi-Five! I have to do CHEM Weekend assignment!! AAAAAAA!! Bye.

mohito {}

SOTD (Song of the day)!

I do not say that you are weak and you cannot take care of yourself, or that I am “Superman”… But “When I am with you”, I just want to make sure that I take care of you… Because we are friends… And “Thats what friends are for”… This song just puts my feelings into words… Wish I were better at saying things…

WHEREVER YOU WILL GO
By: The Calling (Rock on :D)
So lately, been wondering,
Who will be there to take my place
When I’m gone, you’ll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
and between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I’ll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I’ll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I’ll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
Well then I hope there’s someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I’ll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I’ll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I’ll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I’ll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I’ll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I’ll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I’ll go wherever you will go
I’ll go wherever you will go

P.S. Please listen to this masterpiece if you have not…

Happys Endings! 8D

I feel elated by today’s, rather tonight’s turn of events… I know its so much harder to snub your ego and be the first one to sort things out, but the end results are so much better… I am sorry that I hurt you, even though I didn’t mean to… And I am so thankful for your friendship, that you were the most amazing person to have a fight with- just because it was so easy to resolve… *HUG* Not that I am keen on any repeat telecasts of this episode… I just cannot stand not talking to you!

Today was awesome- I said everything I wanted to say and hopefully you said whatever you wanted to let out… All those bottled up things were just getting to me… Thanks for bearing with me, you are truly my angel! I could not thank you enough for being so patient, so understanding, sooo simply great! You rock yaar! Quoting from today’s chapel (it really hit me hard too, was thinking about you all the time)- I am “your community, to see you through your ministry, to be together in all celebrations and adversities” because I will always be there for you…

“I will never let you fall,

I will stand up with you forever, ( )

I will be there for you through it all.

Even if saving you sends me to heaven.” =)

P.S. And I insist I did not ditch you… even if I wanted to, I could not… because I care too…

I could hurt this bad!

I am hurt :*( … And for the first time in my life, I hate myself! For being hurt, for hurting someone… You reminded me of that inevitable fact that I can get hurt and I can hurt people… I was living in this sugar dream that I cant be down ever! But now I am awake!

But this is not what I wanted… between us… And I tried to make things better, you can’t deny that. Sorry for not being up to the mark though… AAAAAAAA!! I dont even know what you are feeling, I don’t know if this even bothers you because I surely can’t go on like this… I just know you think I ditched you, and surprisingly that doesn’t surprise you! Have I done it before? I am sorry for not realizing it, I am sorry that I suck. Trust me- I know you don’t want to, but please try, just this time- I tried my best to care for you, to make a better friend… I guess it wasn’t good enough =( I would just say that I didn’t want to ruin it even more by being near you at that point… I didn’t want to be a burden, the reason for your pain!

I hope we can get this out of our way soon… I am not going to wait for you to take the first step, because I can’t afford to lose your friendship. I admit I am tired of pushing, its been pretty much one-way, but I will hang on, because I am not a quitter. And just like you, I DO NOT ditch! Trust me or not! I will make it alright!

Thanks Yi Rhu, for encouraging me! Ah, it feels great to be encouraged, to be on the receiving end of the warm gestures and words… Thanks for always being there, at my side (even though you’re far away)… I promise I will make it alright and be like you- always there for my friends! At least I will try my best, hope it’s enough…

Hope you are alright. I was always there for you, all you needed to was call. Take Care friend.

Papa <3

Ya, I know I am a bit late but still- “Happy Birthday to you Dad”… 17th January- One of the most important days in my life… More precisely, the whole reason of my Life! And those of you who are thinking that how could I not wish my own Dad on his birthday, just for your information: I was the first one to actually greet him, just like last year… But its really ironic I never did that when we were living together… But now when he’s away, I stay up until 2:30, just to wish him “Happy Birthday” and give him a virtual hug! Hmm… I wish I was wiser…

“My Dad’s the best Dad in the world”… I am sure everyone has heard of or even said this line- but I haven’t because “My Dad is better than the best”… Lol, that used to be the tag-line for the electronics company- BPL, remember? Jokes apart, he really is. He’s the coolest, most caring, affectionate, exemplary, responsible, fulfilling, motherly and fatherly(Yup, both), friendliest, funniest, amazing Father ever! To sum it up, he is the person I love the most in the whole wide world, and I would give anything, literally anything, for him…

I just want to take this time (4:30 a.m. Singapore Time, Haha xD!) to thank you Dad, to hug you, to hold your finger again for every single thing that you have done for me, for us, for Ma, for Dadaji and Dadiji, for our family- all those sacrifices, hard work (I know its an understatement and I am not doing justice to what you have actually done, but trying), Thanks for all those times… Those fights when the only way you punished me (and yourself too) was by not talking to me… Sorry for all those times!

Whenever someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, my perpetual answer was- “I dunno!” But all this time I have wanted to be someone like you… Always! You are such a superdad! I cant thank God enough for you… And truly, I am in awe of you… I look at you and cant believe Dadiji when she tells me that you were the college gangster of your days! Because right now, you are the politest and friendliest person on earth! Even the knowledge of you being a chain smoker shocks me when you don’t even touch a cigarette now, even if the cupboard still has some imported packets (But I guess I had some part to play in that *smug*)… You’ve quit alcohol, anger, fighting, smoking, just like it had no hold on you, like you were always in control… The day I came to know that you had diabetes was one of the gloomiest and darkest days of my life, yet it seems diabetes is a breeze to you, your sugar level is better than mine or any other normal person and eat everything that is cooked and never complain… And I am both embarrassed and proud of how young you look- I mean if my teacher can ask me if you are my elder brother when you are 44, what more can I say? - When would I be like you??? When???

Me- Part II

continued…

aims. I am genuinely aimless right now. However, I have some short term goals- from doing my laundry to getting straight As for A-levels (pls pls pls)…

description. I am a friend, forever. A bit too emotional and sensitive for a guy, but thats ok I guess! I am not focussed or disciplined or hard working, but I am passionate and honest and most importantly- Human… Lol, none of those qualities make any sense though… I am very anal to be a perfectionist, but I can without competition the biggest ever self-proclaimed procrastinator alive! No doubt about it, no questions about it (full stop) I will keep on adding to this section as and when necessary…

random comment. Ugly layout, boring posts, no items. My Blog sucxxx… AAAAAAAAAAAA!!

ME.

This, technically should have been my first post… Never mind, I never actually like talking about myself, honestly, I am not saying this because I am humble or something (thats another thing that I of course am at the ‘height of humility, ;D , kidding as usual!)… So, I am Mohit and I am a normal human being.

life’s philosophy. Even though I take KI, I am not an overtly philosophical person. My funda for life is simple- Learn from your past (although I always fail to do that), plan for your future (seldom manageable) but no matter what just live in the moment! I am very proud of the fact that I am generally a very happy person, and seldom do I get depressed or angry or jealous or all those range of negative emotions(Phew, my life is screwed up enough for all that shit!)…

likes n dislikes. My favorite people on Earth are my parents, my dadaji, my friends ( my friends forever at Home, Indian scholars, Malaysian scholars, AC Dancers, AC Thespians, AC Debators, AC councilors and the rest of all those special people who fall in the category- “gems”), my teachers (not all of them though, yikes!) , and a lot many others who just respond warmly when I greet them! Yay! Food(tasty Indian, Italian vegetarian)- chocolate, dal makhani, pau bhaji, pizzas, pastas, aloo burgers, rajma, chole, shahee paneer, yummm… Icecreams, cakes, a lot of stuff! Games n Sports- soccer, cricket, tennis, badminton, beach volleyball, golf, go-karting, ice skating, chess, carrom, cards, anything also can, Hehe! Places- Beaches, Mountains, Lakes, Forests, Home, Bed, Couch, etc. etc. Activities- Dancing (dancin’ my life), Music (livin’ my music) includes playing guitar, keyboard, singing (restricted to only my bathroom, Injurious to health elsewhere!), sleeping, talking with friends, watching movies and sitcoms like F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Prison Break, Heroes, etc., blogging, organizing stuff (lol!), dancing some more, reading (novels ONLY, I try n maintain safest distance possible from course books), swimming, playing, going for walks with friends, eating, acting, laughing, eating and dancing some more!

Not Much Dislikes. Bad Food. Bad Music. Bad People (fake, bitchy and not-good at heart). And yeah, Studying- I hate it!

to be continued…

Camp'fireless'

Phew! I was high and tired by the time I hit my bed, and that reminded me that my roomie Anuj was coming back the next morning. And I had to go to the airport to receive him, but of course I wouldn’t be able to get up in time! Hehe…Today was phenomenal, but obviously it could have been much better if people I care about would reciprocate a bit, and forget about the misunderstandings of the past… *gets down to his knees* Please, you are really special to me…But we shall not mention names here!

Ok, focusing on the brighter side- I had a lot of fun and bonding with a lot of other friends, while dancing the mass dance, the dance number and kiss kiss with drama! All the performances, in fact the whole Orientation 2008, was like- WOW! I spent a heaven of 12 hours in school from 11 in the morning to 11 in the night! Yipeee!

First, I helped in the CCA exhibition for Dance and Drama too… Then, some of the dancers(including me) rehearsed the mass dance singles! After Lunch, we had dance practice but unfortunately, God had rain in store for us when it was time for blocking…So, basically the venue of Orientation Campfire was shifted to The Hall, which led Raymond to christen it as The Camp’Fireless’! I can just guess how they (Christians) explained it as the greater good work of The Lord! No offense meant…

After our stunning but draining performances for both AC Dance and Acsian Theatre, we crashed Orientation even though Ms. Yu had asked to go home… But it was so unfair, so I dont care! We(Yup, I was not the only Dancer crashing) had the most amazing time in a long time! Watching videos, acts by the clan heads, photos, singing the school anthem, and lastly, “pushing it to the limit”! Yeah, Mass Dance! Even though I didn’t actually know the couples dance, Pris and Sheryl and Bev(all sweethearts) kind of taught me during the dances. But I wanted to groove and dance with a lot more people ~~~

I was really missing my own Orientation and so, had one, no actually three of the Floats from 2AA1….It helped. I know I make no sense… Haha!

Mohito 8D

My 2nd Post

Hmmm…I should be doing my Chemistry H1 assignment for my dear chemistry teacher *shudder*… Or I should be making those stickers for AC Dance… Or I should be doing my Lit holiday homework (even though the holidays are over!)… But no, instead I am here- Writing a blog entry!

Today was exciting, depressing, grueling, fantastic etc. etc…. After the normal school stuff (which included a revision test for Physics, in which I got 11 out of 20…Grrr), I danced away to the mass dance all the way until 5…Then, we had DANCE! Which was fun, esp. with the J3s, until this costume trouble with Hann Bin and Lam… Poor Ying and Peter got all the heat from RJ, even tough it wasn’t their fault… And then, Raj scolded us all for not performing well ! He even went to the point of saying that today was his worst Xperience in AC Dance, and that really hurt :*(! Of course, we all took it in a constructive way and shed tears and then huddled and prayed and hugged. And Rich completely stole my thoughts away when she said that “this is the reason why I come to school”… OMG, I am so completely in love with AC Dancers! Muahh! Wont trade them for anything in the world… Amazing it is, right? How we emerge better, stronger and closer after each scolding (keep up the good work, Raj)… Oh, by the way, some say I am improving! *Smug* Haha, I just want to give to the group, so that we all shine together…

Yesterday, after Drama, Raj said that I was getting better, but also was turning arrogant- and that is my worst fear! I’d rather be a lousy dancer than an arrogant, haughty person… I talked to him separately about it, so he told me it could be subconsciously… I tried to work on that and shine within the group, hope it worked! I soo wanna be a part of them always…

Then, after Dance (finished around 9) I practiced the steps with Hann Bin… Came back aboard 196 with Shawn, and we actually talked after sooo long! But then, I had to go on to Clementi to buy Food, precisely Cheeseburger, Fries and Doughnuts! :p Yummy, finally I am full… And now I am sleepy…HOMEWORK!! AAAAAAAAAA!!

Mohito

To A New Beginning...

A Happy Brand New Year! Even though its technically over by now… Finally, I am here, on my blog! Sheesh, and all I can think of is how long will it last? But lets not go into that on my first post! So what should I inaugurate the blog with??? Obviously, I cant start by writing about myself! I am not that self-centered, you see (Wink! Wink!)…

2008 is here and its not exactly started the way I wanted it to…but I guess its pretty fine, except for the fact that school reopens tomorrow, and I have not touched my homework, literally! When will I start studying???

Before I officially start this blog (ahem!), two people, or rather their blogs, need special mention… For inspiring me towards blogs! First is Les… Don’t go with the name, she is much more than that- Lesley (means ‘Grey Castle’)… She might not have the slightest clue, but her entries have definitely left their mark on me- and I definitely recommend her writings. Critical acclaim ha! Les, I think you should write more- like the secondary school days you know… The second person is Ankita… OMG! Its like living so many emotions at the same time(or rantings, as she calls it!!)… Ankita’s H.E.A.D.S.P.A.C.E. is one of my favorite pastime, with due regards to all her feelings poured into it- and don’t worry yaar, I don’t judge you by your blog- I know you too well to judge you!

I guess thats pretty much all for the first post… I guess I will write some of my diary entries and my thinkable thoughts in here, which is hazardous stuff by the way :p! I am sure that if Microsoft Word would have had feelings, it would have been sick of me by now… Lol!

Have a great year ahead…Watch this space for Resolutions!

Mohito