CARS

I just watched the movie... Its great! Thanks to Vishesh, but no thanks coz I really shouldn't be doing this to my future right now. I know I am going to regret every millisecond of it, but I still can't stop. I have NO ONE ELSE but MYSELF to blame. I suck!!! And let me encore that- I suck BIG TIME!

Okay, after that self punishment sort of thing, moving on to the better parts- I have gotten a hang of Chemistry and I think I'll be through... Physics is going fine... I am not sure abut KI and Lit... And I am certain I am gonna screw up math. I have four set targets for the coming four days. Hope that Fantasy=Reality!

I am NOT going to school tomorrow. Well, I don't see the point since I wont be attending the super important Maths refresher lecture where "they" will be "distributing" knowledge as I have this Top Secret thing. Also, Paper 1 physics mock exam was a pure wastage of time and I am sure Paper 2 wont be any better. So, heck with it man! I don't give a rat's ass about it...

Lightenin'...

I watched The Dark Knight with Anuj... I think Heath Ledger deserves another life. I think it is one of the best movies I have ever seen and the way its breaking records like a "spontaneous radiation" (Sorry, I was studying Modern Physics today), I think it is one of the best movies ever made. It just shook me up inside and Heath Ledger is not my hero, he is my villain...

Why so serious??? >:D

Coz the PRELIMS are in XI days! SOS please, someone help me! I have to ace these exams and disprove my "critics" or else... But more importantly, I have a lot to prove to myself. So, get it together, you can do better. I have found my motivation in the AC Dancers, so I am studying in school until late these days, and I have covered more than I did in the entire leap year! I have to keep emotions aside and escalate.

I am acceleration, extreme speed, look like a Cadillac, sting like a bee! B)

Up & fuelled for the last lap,
Mohito

P.S. Actually, the second last. Wait a minute. or was it third last?

Questions.

Does God exist?

Is he good?

Does he love us?

If he does, then why is there suffering in the world?

Why isn't world the perfect place to live in?

Why does he take away our loved ones from us?

Why can't we all live without malice, without sadness, without disease, without death?

Isn't God omnipotent and ever lasting?

He created us, right?

Then, shouldn't he just create happiness, love and bliss for us?

At least, for those who are as nice as her? Shouldn't their lives be devoid of grief and pain, where hearts are devoid of hatred and any ill feelings, filled with joy and all other things nice and sweet?

Lucky ripples' grandpa passed away last night, in spite of all the prayers, condolences and wishes... Lucky Ripples... :(
I didn't know what to say... Luckily, I have never suffered the loss of a loved one, and I don't want to... Really, I'd rather die before all my family and friends... But I guess one day, I will have to... Will I be able to handle it? Will I be as strong as her? At this moment, I don't think so...

This was the first time I ever saw a glint of sadness in her eyes, even though that perpetual smile was still present on her bubbly face... Even though you say so friend, I know you are not okay. But I hope you will be soon. Take care, friend. :)

Only if I could ask God...

Why?

1 Month to Prelims!!!

AAAAAAAAA!!! I wanna die oreddy! Vishesh and Anuj are studying Econs with such fervour in my room and its killing me that I just cant get myself to even meet one of the targets that I artistically drew on the white board on my wall last night... SHOOT ME NOW!

Haha, that line was by Raj... When he realized that he lives in the same apartment as Sarah Ann! Raj... He asked me to strip as Joanne's present at 'The Screening', which was a total blast... the setup... The food which was mostly Non-vegetarian but I am not complaining... "Who's got the most armpit hair?"game disguised as "The muscle-man game"... Tim serenading Miss Wong... Aretha's and Tajreen's stints... The cutting of the beautiful "baloney" cake... My striptease on Joe Cocker's sexy classic- "You can leave your hat on"... The screening itself in which we cheered like it was show night and the music was off during Happy Endings... The pack-up and all the camwhoring... The Debrief by Raj and then coming back with meowy michy! It was all just so fulfilling, like every other minute spent with he dancers- eating, studying, dancing... Doing what we do! I went on the first day to babysit the J1s, only to discover that they don't need it. They were quite like a family, effective and having a lot of fun, but I couldn't watch them learning our old warm up favorite- "Please Don't Stop the Music"! Sigh, it kills me to know that there is dance and I can't go... I miss AC Dance. A LOT.

Anyway, I have been skipping school a lot. Like A LOT. Just realized that out of three weeks of school since it reopened, I have effectively taken leave for one week, being blue slipped for another! I mean I need to snap outta it and get down to studying. No more holidays until the Prelims now. Tomorrow I have this hostel concert which I wish Hermione comes to watch... And after that I am done with dancing, at least until As! I am started to get worried about my future now... At this rate, I won't even get into NUS with a scholarship and not knowing what I wanna do doesn't help! So, I have to start real fast and get back into form for studies. I am gonna pray today. Christian style.

Dear God,

Please help me get my act together and give my best to meet my aspirations and my parents' and teachers' expectations of myself- so that I realize my true potential granted by you. I want to work hard for my future and do the best as I can academically and otherwise. I seek your hand in doing so. Please help me to remain focussed towards my goal and get motivated by my diligent friends as well as to inspire those who are complacent. All this I pray in your most holy name.

Amen.
And all that cal (inspired from 'A Clockwork Orange').

Whats it gonna be then, eh?

I must start NOW. Ok, Vishesh's and Anuj's constant and devoted and deliberate studying is getting to my nerves now. Help me Bog.

Your Humble and Faithful narrator
Mohit

What Happened. (inspired by "Arethea's" entry)

Back after a long lay off...
Let me see- I have about 4 minutes to write this post "I am out of time, I only got 4 minutes, 4 minutes, yeah!"
Trying to find my old form back! And its hard... I dunno how I will fare for my Prelims that are less than 7 weeks away! Now I regret that I can't feel stressed...
Being reading other people's blogs- Dancers, people back home, hostel mates, school mates, thespians and a lot of them are quite inspiring... Maintaining a blog wasn't such a bad decision after all!

University prospects are fading as time flies by! SAT scores weren't very encouraging either... I need to study, like I used to. And everything will be fine.

I have lost a friend, for the first time in my life I guess! At least now I know how it feels! Who am I kidding? I'd rather have her back than have this shitty experience... But I know that I am not wrong, except for that I am "very, very, very, very" egoistic!

Block it!
*TIME OVER*
Dance.

Tuesday

I was so badly missing my parents and my AC Dance family, at the same time... Busy writing my previous post when Mrs. Rosalind Tan took us (Vishesh and Pooja too) out for lunch @ NYDC... It was such a refuge from the horribly terrible hostel food and all the blues... And your conversations at dinner were most amazing Your Majesty! Haha, miss you Lian! :) But my "Smokey Mountain Memories" kept on chasing me at the restaurant as well when "Happy Endings" started playing and when we were talking about our supper @ Swensens...

*Interesting Fact #3- Swensens, apparently, is owned by the grandson Mrs. Lee Choon Guan, the great lady after whom our CPA theatre was christened... I wonder if that is the reason the dancers chose Swensens for after-show supper! :)*

Anyways, thank you Mrs. Tan for the great food, including all your love when you wanted to cure my throat and didn't allow me to have an NYDC Icecream! And thanks for all the cookies and the numerous stories and jokes you told us, even though Vishesh was bored to death, I was pretty much amused... Haha! "I know the tool, but I don't know the instrument"...

Wednesday

I am a Model. Haha! Thank God Kris asked me to model for the National Museum of Singapore, coz I got to spend some time with the dancers- Aretha, Ying, Beatrice, Kris, Kian Yong and Vanessa... And earned 50$ for just 5 hours! Hmm... Not bad, even though I didn't do it for money, unlike some people (Really bitchy!)... And the make-up artist and the hair stylist were making fun of my hair in Mandarin, and I spilled coffee on one of my favourite shirts, and I ate subway with Kris and Van after the modelling!

But I must admit Modelling is quite taxing and boring... We were all really exhausted after that... I wish for an AC Dance outing so much! Sigh!

Thursday

Modelling again... This time it was only Me, Kris and Beatrice (who didn't turn up because of Mommy troubles!) and with some other people- the same two bouncy and naughty kids, two French interns Sebastian and Enma, a Caucasian PR Curtis, same old Grandpa, a Taiwanese girl and her Mom, and the same Crew of course... At the Peranakan Museum...

When the Passenger Service officer at City Hall told me it was at Armenian Street, I thought I had heard the name before, and discovered so in the map where I saw the museum was just besides The Substation- where I had been audience to two ACsian Theatre plays. Anyways, today was even longer and more tiresome, boring and exhausting! But I made new friends (acquaintances rather) with the French, the china-doll looking girl (shit, I forgot her name... Something starting with C... Kris, if you are reading this please help)... And with Curtis and Danny...

Then came the highlight of the day- after much self-mortification, I finally decided to watch the movie with Kris and Van... But only after I had eaten the first foot-long subway of my life (Veggie patty)! And man, it was really more than filling! The movie turned out to be really worth the time, I was rolling in my chair with laughter and all three of us were hysterical even half an hour after the show ended! Van said Goodbye and so did me and Kris at the MRT station after devouring a Fried Mars Bars... After so long...

Friday

Woke up to say Bye to Vishesh for his "Pandan Camp" which doesn't sound delicious to me at all... Then went back to sleep until it was time to go for De Wei's IS rehearsal... After so long again as De Wei said when I got there "Long time no see"... Was great seeing Drama Juniors and Dancers- Ying, Joan, Adele, Joanne, Shawn, Tim, Nick, Michelle, Esther, Natalie, Taj, Aretha, Edlyn, Kian Yong... The rehearsal was so and so... Only person seem to be really enjoying it was Ed- she's even more enthu than me, I swear! Joy and Rich were missing, and Ms. Wong came after a while... Comments by her mainly consisted of "me being in a bubble (her fav. line)" and "about how hers and Edlyn's body type are the same- boobs and butt" and about her "Marriage and kids plans"... A little me! OMG!

Anyway, after that I studied for the second time in these holidays with the dancers... And discovered that being around them is the only conducive environment for me to study in... So, I am going to go to Void Deck to study most of the next week! But alas, I couldn't talk to them about going to watch 'Sex and the City" with me and Joan... Had dinner with Esther and Michelle, and Vanessa and Kris (for the third time in a row! Hat-Trick!) @ NYDC, where I could finally use my PPP Gift Voucher to pay off the GST and the service charge! :) Van was sad about her "boy" problems... I don't get it... Why do people have so many problems in relationships? I never had any problems! Maybe I will have the next time! That was all for the day- still did not eat an NYDC dessert! Sigh...

Saturday

Wasted half the day (more than that, actually) sleeping until 3:oo P.M. Only woke up coz I was too hungry to keep sleeping. And the first thing I did after bathing was cook and eat- Cheese sandwiches w Ice cream are not that good- for your mood, and your health! Anyway, was reading some random blogs until dinner (not that random actually, I really know these people)... Will write about it some other time, I am actually in a hurry to finish this post... which is getting long and boring! -.-

After that, I watched Kung Fu Panda again and "I was going blind due to OVER EXPOSURE to PURE AWESOMENESS"... HAHAHAHA! And I also finally finished watching Prince Caspian, which was quite nice... Next is Sarkaar Raj, one of my rare Bollywood movies (it is rather promising!)...

Sunday

Started with Chat with Joan past midnight, which went on to like 2:00 a.m. or something... Thanks for being there for me in my solitude Joan... I was really feeling lonely as there was no Vishesh and no Anuj! And I was sooo hungry I could have eaten my bedsheets! Anyways, I made a resolution to wake up for breakfast, do me laundry and then study all the way... No prizes for guessing that the resolution went down the drain... I sooo HATE myself. Actually, I need a stronger word than hate, you know? How about despise? Or disgust?

I also hate/despise/disgust myself because I forgot today was Father's Day, despite of all the claims of how much I love papa... I am such a hypocrite! He called me to ask me how I was... Nevertheless, Happy Father's Day Papa! I want to want to love you! =)

Did nothing but watch Sarkaar Raj. Then, took a bath to go for grocery shopping... Settled all my over-due Singtel bills and bought Pasta, chocolates and Orange Juice! Yay! =) But I have to save money now...

Okay, FULL STOP now.

In the darkest and deepest pits of lack of inspiration and creativity,
mohito

P.S. I sooo wanna dance right now, with The AC Dancers. :(

Little bit of love <3

I just gave up writing a detailed post about all the 'Goodbyes' that I had to say in the past few days, about every day of the Restless week, about my holiday with my parents, about the post production party... But it will forever remain in my posts list as a draft that is another side of the story...

True, I hate saying goodbyes. Alvida. Au Revoir. Ciao. Adeus. Sayonara. Hamba kahle. Adios. Or whatever you call it... Especially when it is to a lot of love... Or should I say 'a little bit of love'? *brushes shoulder* :) Being Restless...
As Chin messaged me on the night I left for Malaysia, I am so "Restless" since the curtains closed after our last show on Saturday! The experience of being an AC Dancer has been indisputably the best of my life so far, and I won't trade it for anything in the whole world... But it came to an end with the waving to the audience after the encore "when you knew that I was always by your side"... Or maybe after we said our goodbyes after the supper at Swensens... Or perhaps after the Post Production Party's pack up... Or has it really ended? I hope not. Whatever it is- one thing's for sure- Life will never be the same again... I will miss so much:-

1. The studio, a second home to us. :)


2. The back-breaking warm ups (the familiar 1st exercise especially).

3. Attire- Our super-sexy, super-cool, super-class dance tees and our beloved dance jacket!

4. Learning the dances, which took me ages! -.-


5. The looooooooooong rehearsals, especially before Restless (Phew!)


6. All the cheering and the "Go Guys", until the point we couldn't even hear the music!


7. All the racist jokes by Raj and the dancers(special mention must go to Shawn Poh here). I must admit it was quite fun! Haha! :x


8. The two great Dance Camps- the most fun times ever!

9. All the super Dance outings- @Sentosa, @Crystal Jade 4 CNY Dinner, @ Fort Canning 4 Giselle... I really want more of those now! Pleeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzz... :D


10. Food- which we consumed in enormous quantities, thanks to some self confessed gluttons! :p


11. The cam-whoring yeah! We love the camera and the camera loves us, right? B)


12. All the numerous performances- from SYF (when u guys made everyone proud by clinching Gold with Honours!) to CNY '07 (which I missed due to last minute Chicken Pox), from Asean Congress Dinner and CPA Gala Dinner (I've got Rhythm) to the exhausting Open House, from the Old age home CIP to the Singapore bidding for YOG (Rhythm again), and of course Orientation and CNY '08 (Culture in motion) to the exchange with the Philippines University! We have truly come a long way dancers! :)


13. The two life-changing concerts- "Timeless" and "Power, Passion and Pirouettes", where we all danced for the 'restless' and the 'broken-hearted', and I danced for you all.


14. Lee Foundation Theatre, NAFA and Mrs. Lee Choon Guan Theatre, Faith Centre of Performing Arts- the brand new theatre!


15. The bonding sessions which were quite wet, if you know what I mean!


16. The stick notes filled with love and encouragement- couldn't have done it without them... They completely hid our mirrors, rendering them useless!


17. The dressing room drama- Trust me, sometimes Dancers can be more drama than ACsian Theatre! :p


18. Our Dearest Crew, without them all the shows would be a mess! Thanks for helping out guys and really being a part of the AC Dance family. =)


19. Make Up & Hairstyling- Thanks to the alumni and madams for making us look glamorous and Raj for giving us the perfect locks for dishing! :D


20. The super-glam costumes, especially our artistically self-designed Restless Jeans, all of which turned into soggy and smelly heaps of sweat after the performances... FEBREEZE saved us all from a biological hazard!


21. Our Final Moments on stage- when we all cried like babies, even the gangsta woman Yun Ning, even macho shit Taj, and when even Raj came to the brink of tears! And all the final prayers and the hugging, and special surprise from the junies! :*(


22. Debrief by our Dear Ms. Michelle Wong, when we were told the DOs and DON'Ts after the show...


23. PPPs- I couldn't attend the first one coz I was back home, but I could see from the photos that it was a blast! And this year's Beach Party PPP was just so damn class- I got dunked twice, had my butt cleavage captured in a camera, and teared and laughed like crazy!

24. Raj- his self-designed jeans, his songs, his choreo, THE DISH, the scoldings (Ji Dan, Cotek, breasts/balls, and a lot more) but most of all the jokes! Thank you Sir, for everything you've taught us!


25. The committee, which was the best ever we could have asked for! Thank you guys!

26. The seniors- our inspiration, our mentors! Thanks for passing on the legacy to us and showing us what AC Dance is all about. :)


27. The juniors- we are the luckiest batch in terms of juniors, PPP is testimony! And I can see the awesome potential that they have, and how they love us as much as we love them...

28. My fellow AC Dancers- I love all of you. And I dunno what I'd do without you. Really Really, you rock my socks! Each of you has touched my life in a special way, so I wanna use this post to thank you, even though I know I could never thank you enough! I just hope & pray & wish that we keep growing strong on our "Smokey Mountain Memories" and finally get our own "Happy Endings"! :)


29. AC DANCE family- Live your Dance, Dance your life.

30. Much Much More, which cannot be put into words, pictures or videos Emotions that are so deep, that they are impossible to explain! The best I can do is put my feeling for AC Dance in three words- Everlasting Unconditional LOVE.

wasted mohito (I feel as if I am wasted!)

P.S. This post took me two weeks to finalize and it is still under renovations. Phew! Things I do...